Today started at 4:15am
Well, technically it started at 2am, but we will say 4:15 since that's the last time I slept.
Since the sun came up, it's been a solo or chorus of crying, pooping, upset messes.
I wrote about it and got some amazing support from friends.
And in a text message conversation with a friend I said "I'm not winning any awards today"
And then I stopped.
Because I am! I am winning! I haven't yelled, or cried myself, or lost it. I have patiently taken each child, taken care of their needs, tried endlessly to get the tears to stop, taken a 3 minute break when I felt it was necessary. I've changed.4 pairs of underwear, four diapers, and fed a semi nutritious lunch (breakfast was bread and m&ms so I was trying to make up for it).
And you know what? That's not a lot, but it's what is needful, and I can do it. To me, that's winning.
And maybe tomorrow we will make a beautiful gingerbread house and I'll finish my Pinterest quilts and we will all sit in front of the tree and sing in matching clothes, but whether or not we do that today or tomorrow or any day, what makes us happy is having each other, and serving each other in the best way we know how.
